Ok, so I really left it hanging last time. I think being new to blogging I wasn't quite ready to share the mental dramas that come with the first 12 weeks of pregnancy with the wide wide world. Now I know that this is the whole point of blogging, and I'm sorry if anyone had started following my story nad was left dangling. I just noticed that "vegas mommy" left me a congratulations note on the last post, which is so sweet and really appreciated, but made me feel bad that I hadn't updated. So, to cut a long story short, I am still pregnant - 18.5 weeks - and all seems to be going well.
I had an early scan at 6w 4d just before Christmas, and although we didn't expect to see anything really, we were rewarded with a tiny flickering heartbeat of hope. I hung on through Christmas, and had another scan a week after the first, which showed apporpriate growth, then I think another a week after that. then I realise dthat I was living from scan to scan and not actually living in between, which was driving me a little crazy, so I cancelled the next scan and waited until the nuchal fold test at 12 weeks. All looked good thank God.
Next I started to stress out about feeling movement, which I felt early with my daughter. It seemed to take far longer, but eventually I was able to confidently say it was baby, not wind, and now it is quite wriggly. It generally is quiet in the mornings, and then wakes up after lunch and is quite responsive and wriggly during the afternoon and evening.
I am far more relaxed than I was, but I think you approach pregnancy differently after any kind of loss, so I'll only really be happy once it's safely born...
...so the next question: Repeat C-section or VBAC? Eeek. I would really like to try the VBAC, but then I have a bad bout of painful wind and think "labour must be even worse than this!" (duh!) and wimp towards the C-Section. My last section was due to failure to go into labour, induction, then failure to progress and fetal distress, so there's no medical reason why I shouldn't have a VBAC, but I have very little experience, therefore of "natural" labour...
At the moment I'm erring towards if I go into labour naturally I'll give it a go, and if not, then I'll go straight for the section without messing around with trying to induce it. Any thoughts from those who've had a VBAC would be great.
